Well, today was THE PITS!! I was in a very dark mood; sick of being sick; tired of being tired; OVER IT. Ever been like that? (I see that nodding head). I was absolutely questioning God...calling Him into account and angry that I "had" to suffer. These attitudes prove that I am still a first grade Christian. Chronologically, I'm a 48 year old Christian, but today I behaved like a 1st grader. You see, a truly mature Christian suffers patiently, trusting the Lord's wisdom and love. The Apostle Paul calls it "enduring hardness". One day, when I graduate from the university of Christian life, I will automatically trust Him and doubts will end. After all, you never question one you totally trust. I'm sad to say that I still have far to go in that area...but I intend to get there. What about you? What grade are you in?
Hang in there.